The Architecture of Silence
There came a point in my life when the architecture within me changed. ... I used to build my house out of echoes, shouting into the canyons of other people’s hearts, waiting for their voices to return and tell me who I was. I mistook the loudness of my grief for the depth of its importance, believing every wound needed a witness, every silence needed explaining. ... But after a certain limit, something inside me grew still. ... I stopped complaining, not because nothing hurt anymore, but because my heart grew tired of repeating its sorrow to ears that never truly listened. The disappointments stayed for a while, like rain fading on old windows, yet slowly even pain began to lose its voice. ... And so, the architecture changed. ... The walls within me were no longer built from bitterness or the jagged glass of “why,Whose” but from the soft grey mortar of enough. I learned to sit alone in the room of myself without turning on the lights for a guest who was never coming. ... There was a ...