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The Man He Loved in the Dark

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You left a last letter, as though a life could be explained, Once there was no life left to answer for its scars; You wrote of respectable faces walking in the sun, While you had learned to make your dwelling in the dark. You said the best of you was discarded long ago, And what remained had learned to live without a name; You could have carried on that way, as others do, Until my presence made you look at yourself again. Love was not a gentle light when it entered you; It stripped away the shelter of your compromises bare; The man you had accepted suddenly seemed strange, When you imagined how he might appear to me. You spoke of hands that had known too many women, And swore that mine would never feel their touch; Not from a lack of longing, but from something deeper- You thought your darkness would contaminate what you loved. You told me you had never wounded those beside you, That pain had often been something you endured; You wanted to change, to leave that life behind, But wantin...

The Silent Calendar

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Even after all these years, I do not know my birthday. No paper holds the exact date, No record marks my way. I came into this world alone, Without a marked estate. By the time I knew what birthdays were, My mother was already gone. So there was no one left to wish me, No voice to call me home. No mother held me to her chest, Or smoothed my hair down close. No voice pronounced my early name- The thing I miss the most. My friends had birthday parties, Wore new clothes, bright and gay. I watched them from a quiet distance, Left outside their play. I wondered then about the cake, And why they’d light a flame, Only to blow the candle out While shouting out a name. Later, I came to understand: They made a wish before the light went out. Everyone clapped and shared a smile, Without a single doubt. I was left to wander through A silence cold and worn, Thinking a birthday was just a mark For the day that you were born. For years I thought it was a number, A simple mark on a page, A calendar no...

I Know Why I Had to Stand

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  I never wanted only a toy or a machine body, Nor a touch or whisper that fades with night, I wanted someone to see my pure soul, And hold my heart with gentle light. *** I wanted to be accepted, And have someone help me find my way, Not for beauty, youth, skin, or wealth, But for the woman I am each day. *** I wanted someone who would listen, When words were difficult to say, Someone who could read my silence, And never simply walk away. *** I wanted peace and love beside someone, A place where I could just be me, Where love would never feel like fear or trespass, And where my heart could breathe free. *** I wanted little acts of kindness, A smile when I was feeling low, A hand to hold me through the darkness, A quiet “ I’m here dear ” to let me know. *** I wanted trust without suspicion, Respect without jealousy or blame, A love that never made me smaller, A home where love could stay the same. *** I have known the weight of silence, The wounds that no one else could see, The pa...

When the Night Has Faded

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  When the Night Has Faded *********************** That night has faded into the still air, The bloodlust and the cries have drifted away; A thousand broken dreams once buried there Are swallowed by the silence of the day. *** Yet deep beneath the ashes of the past, The songs you once forgot begin to rise; They sing of gentle things meant still to last, Unfolding softly underneath the skies. *** I bring you stories woven out of youth, And lay them gently down upon your lap, Where little Barbie still drinks from tiny cups, And time folds back into an open map. **** Come, stand beside me like a child again, Back in the refuge where no heart can bleed, Where nymphs with wings as delicate as butterflies Come seeking flowers through the fields of green. *** You walk through life without a thought to wound, Too kind to bruise a flower in your palm; Stay near me in the quietude of peace, And hold my hand within this tender calm. *** No promises, no words that fade away, No hunger, no poss...

Let Me Feel Your Love

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  Words are mere shadows that easily lie, While actions reveal what is true to the eye. Though promises spoken may capture my mind, It is only through feeling that safety I find. I have smiled at sweet phrases that melted the air, Only to discover no substance was there. So now I observe what a heart chooses to do, For the clarity of action is steadfast and true. I ask for no grand, sweeping oaths from your tongue, Nor songs sweeter far than the rain ever sung. I need but your presence to render them whole, By standing beside me in body and soul. No longer enticed by the flatterer’s art, Where beautiful phrases hide falsehoods at heart, I seek for a devotion that practice will teach- A love that remains when the easy nights breach. When you draw near to gaze in my eyes, Let no rehearsed speeches or answers arise. Let quietness linger beneath the dark skies, And let your soft touch tell where honesty lies. Come closer and grant me your warmth in the night; Let your arms speak the wo...

The Smuggler

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  The Smuggler ************** Where have you vanished, lion-hearted man, Whose courage once outshone the sun? The poor still whisper your forgotten name, And wonder where their guardian has gone. **** You walked through danger without fear, With hidden cargo in the night; A gun beside you, darkness near, And fate itself beneath your sight. **** Where is your van on the lonely road? Where are the gold and gems you carried? Where is the secret, heavy load, And all the dreams your footsteps buried? **** The world has changed, the times are new, The smugglers of your kind are gone; Now greed wears suits and speaks so true, While honour quietly marches on. **** Where is that daring, reckless art, Of risking life for one more run? Where is the fire within your heart, That made the impossible seem fun? **** We miss the man behind the crime, The outlaw with a heart of gold; A guardian lost somewhere in time, A story that refuses to grow old. **** Perhaps your footsteps fade away, Perhaps y...

I Keep Myself

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  I do not want you to love me, Nor do I ask for you to see. You need not follow where I walk, Nor do I need you here with me. *** You do not have to hear my song, Nor welcome me along my way. I ask for neither hand nor voice; I have my own road now to take. *** So go away, my fleeting love- There is no illusion left to save. What once seemed certain, time has changed; What once held me need not remain. *** For if love needs another's eyes To tell me what my life should be, Then love has crossed the line of love And made a quiet slave of me. *** Let my face shine among the stars That keep their distance through the night. Let mountain streams return my face And carry it beyond my sight. *** Let painted shadows mark my path, Let forest branches speak my name. When wild reeds sing my stories out, I need not ask who hears the same. *** The forest does not ask me why. The river does not ask me stay. The stars do not demand my heart Before they give their quiet light away. *** So let na...