After the Applause
I once believed the crowd was home, that praise could fill the empty space. I chased the light where bright names shone, and measured worth by my own fame. *** I loved the sound of strangers' cheers, the warmth that came from being seen. For a while it softened hidden fears, and painted ordinary days with dreams. *** I rose like a bird upon the wind, certain the sky would always stay. The world seemed open at my feet, and every door appeared unlocked. *** I mistook attention for belonging, and applause for something I had earned. I thought the light would always find me, and never wondered how it turned. *** One day the noise began to fade. The voices grew a little thin. The doors that once stood open wide slowly forgot to let me in. *** I searched for what I used to be inside the mirrors of the crowd. But all I found was loneliness beneath the mask I wore with pride. *** The fall was not a single step. It came like evening after light. A gradual dimming of the world, a longer and ...